Remembering who I am

I’m cleaning stuff out, today. Getting rid of things that take up space in my life and yet, given who I’ve become, have no place in my life.

I found journals, from as far back as 19990 – when I began my first business. And there I was, reading journals instead of doing what I’d set out to do, yet realizing that there are no accidents in the universe.

I read words written in my own handwriting and I wonder who that woman was! As I read, I can see/hear/feel the thread that ties her to who I have become today and yet, feel somehow distant and removed in some way. There are entries about every aspect of my life, including my thoughts as I moved through my pregnancy with my first child as a single mother. In those, each word is cherished and felt as if I am living it now. Oh, that I could live it all again....such magic!

I did find something that I can still relate to, all this time past. A journal entry dated October 23, 1995. I do remember that around that time, I was about to create six-week group experiences with women that would become the Women and Power material. All there is on the page is that date and the information below in point form:

“
- to be present, calm and centered
- to breathe
- to trust that they will be/do who and what is required for them to express
- to listen; to hear the deep structure
- to be respectful
- to honor my process as well as the process of each of the other 7 women in the room
- to take my time
- to be honest
- to trust in a force higher than myself
- to trust in a Higher Self – a greater self – one that knows the larger plan. “

That was 12 years ago and it is still how I choose to live. In life, there are things that do not need to be remembered when they have become who we are.

Breathing is good…..